Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts

Monday, 17 May 2010

..here goes today...and yesterday..and tomorow..

How to describe my mind:
Castles and fairies, books and tree-spirits, turrets, scrapbooks, sunshine and waves. A collision of crayola crayons exploding in the sky. Music, colour and words feed my dreams and litter each corner of my scatter brain. But each room holds a sinister shadow, a superhero secret haunting and poisoning each thought with pessimism and doubt. But every soul that enters my life i treasure because they leave a warmth and light that their personal sunshines come with. They chase away the night terrors that seep into the walls of my Pandora's box of a brain.


Once upon a time, a boy asked me to describe my mind. This was my reply. He told me that i should post it on here, and so here it is. But my mind is not what is currently buzzing through my thoughts currently. A boy. A boy? A boy! A boy. A man. How did i let this happen? Have i actually let it happen? I guess i already have. Let the turmoil commence. Pessimism is gurgling in my blood but it seems as if the sun is melting the worries away and submitting the doubts to a mere murmer on my shoulder.
Who? What? Where? When?
I have no bloody idea. He seems to have popped up and out of my dreams, he appears too perfect for my liking, hence the underlying absence of optimistic, naive jargon of a love-drunk teen.
I will risk it.
Bob Marley said once that ''Everyone is bound to hurt you, you've just got to find the ones worth suffering for'' [or something like that]
And so i lead a life of search, ill ride the waves, ill tumble and stumble my way through heartache until i find the ending and wish God that i regret nothing. For who wants to live a life of ''what if's'' ........

Saturday, 13 March 2010

Dreams

What has happened?
Swimming against the tide, the rushing water spinning, spiraling towards the plug hole dragging me down.
I feel useless as i succumb to the forces that are pushing me under.
Her blonde hair, whips around her face like a fish caught in a net. Her eyes are staring at me with a blank composure, the piercing blue dulled to a milky tear drop. Her pursed lips, blood against her fair skin, drained of any emotion as she drowns.
Wailing around her, free from life are her limbs, clawing at the water as it escapes her every grasp and laughs at her meek attempt at saving herself.
Suicide blonde rips out her beating organ
as the pied Piper plays a song on her chest
music has left, Pandora's box is empty
that final jump blonde thought was best
Her chest is lifted abruptly into the air, her head thrown back as he gasps for one sip of air. Clawing at the sheets as they become loose, she tears them from beneath the matress. Breathing heavily and fast her eyes flick open and her surroundings embrace her.
The familiar smell of her inscense burnt room, the photos of her life.
One more dream as real as the prior and the one before that.