the realisation of my desperation sickens me

oh how the hope soon leaks out and the truth seeps in

the harsh slap of cold blood rises to the surface

how it takes a thousand tears or more

to be shed

to be bled

how it takes weeks to eventually accept it

the anger oh the anger is still boiling through my soul

how long it will boil i dont know

oh the hurt of stupidity curses through my veins

and now i want to scream and shout

to claw my eyes

so i'll never see your face again.

to detatch my nose

so ill never smell reminders of you.

cut these lips

shed this skin

so no remaints of where you touched me

will be left upon my bleeding soul

how long does it take for the imprints you left apon my scar

scratched heart to fade?

can i wait for the shell i so boldly left for you to come back to me?