back paddling.

Dont want to forget

dont want to remember either

going out of my mind

and i just want to find her

that girl with blonde hair

back before all the drama

would never have cared

or let anyone harm her

i want to be strong

and want to forget

but i can live just as long

i never remember

it hurts to think

it hurts to feel

i want to take this stupid heart and rip it from my chest

because all i seem to do is hurt

why cant i live with out a heart huh ?

cant i live with a pump instead one that doesnt have feelings

i cried today.

i fucking cried over a fucking boy. a BOY !?

i know !

and oh no this isnt recent. after all this time im still hung.

hand me a noose and let me get it over with.

please

im definatly sure its more humaine than letting me live like this.

GOD ! oh damn even that makes me think and then makes me hurt.